Just A Dream

" I've always dreamed, that my life could be, like a fairy tale, a perfect fantasy. Was is nothing more than just a dream?"

Dreamed to be successful.

Dreamed to have an iPad.

Dreamed to be skinny. XD

Dreamed to go to Japan.

Dreamed to travel this beautiful world.

Dreamed to have my own fairy tale.

Dreamed to be on other people's mind.

Dreamed to have kids

Dreamed to actually like someone ( like that's gonna happen)

Dreamed for someone to actually listen to my advice

Dreamed to be rich, money and afterlife

Dreamed to go to heaven ( Insya Allah)

Dreamed to be a journalist.

Everyone has their own dreams, what makes it different is whether they will come true or not. 

My wonderful brain is now having problems. Too many things to worry, so many things that needs to be done and just plain. I want my dreams to come true, no matter how ridiculous they are. At least one the above. But i just have too many dreams. Some people don't believe i can do it. Mostly because of the way i look and sometimes my personality. Well maybe they are right. One day, I will prove of my worthiness. 

I feel that I am very annoying to people, and i don't know why. That is why my phone credit never finishes. I don't know who should i text or what should i text. If i text someone first, it makes me feel that i am so bloody lonely, which i am. I spend my days watching tv and playing the piano. That it is. Nothing really interesting though. Then i see all these people with their friends, texting, calling, tweeting, and whatever, "wow, what am i doing with my life right now"  urgh, hate this feeling. 

nothing special this time or at least nice. sorry. out