"Honey, is everything alright? C'mon open the door, talk to me" mom cooed from outside my room.
"No! EVERYTHING IS WRONG JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" I screamed on top of my lungs.
Why can't everything be right for me? I can't even get an A in a subject without working my ass off, can't get a guy to like me, or my parents to understand me.
"Ughhhh"
-END OF SEMESTER-
I still didn't tell Mike that I'm moving after graduation which is in a few days. Like literally in 5 days. I don't want to ruin his happiness. He was chosen valedictorian of our class and was so hyped about it. His relationship with Caitlyn couldn't be more, well, clingy. He was more happy than he is with me, yes we still hang out with each other, but only when he comes over for dinner with his parents at my house or vice versa. He is too busy playing sports or studying with his girlfriend. After graduation is prom, which I won't be attending for
1) Nobody asked me out, even the nerd of the school has a date, and
2) My flight for New York is right 4 hours after graduation.
It is sad leaving the place that I grew up since forever and leaving the person you loved. But I think its better this way. Mike is happy after all. Me leaving won't be much a problem to him.
-GRADUATION DAY-
"Graduation doesn't mean the end of friendships, relationships, hardships. It means new beginnings of a much bigger things in stored for us. The past four years had been a wild ride for me and the seniors of North High. But I want all of you to hold on to all the moments that you've shared with each other. At least there's something to tell to your grandchildren in the future...."
Mike stood tall and handsome on the podium giving his speech. Sometimes I would caught his eyes looking towards his parents and Caitlyn, but not even once, or a second, he looked at me. Probably because I was seated way at back. But then again, who even notices me?
After that I went on stage, took my scroll, a picture with Mr Harold, the principle and went home. Yes, i stayed just for a while for pictures and then I went home. I still have some packing to do.
-A FEW HOURS LATER-
*KNOCK KNOCK*
After waiting a few seconds, I see Sarah, Mike's mom standing in the doorway.
"Oh hello!!!! Oh my, what a big, beautiful girl you've grown into. I'm so proud that you got into Uni and pursuing your dreams. I felt like it was just yesterday you had that blasted chicken pox with Mikey" sighing as she recollected the memory when I was five.
I chuckled at her comment.
"Don't make me tear up now. You know that's not going to work. My flight is still in a few hours Sarah"
"Ah damn, well I tried. Anyway what brings you here?" She tilted her head to the side as she asked.
"I just wanted to give this to Mikey. Is he home?" I showed her a box and a letter that I've writtern.
"Aww honey, he's still not home. He went for the leavers' party. Wait..... Why didn't you go?"
"Oh no.... Its okay, I wouldn't have enjoy it anyway. Well.... Um, can you give this to him?" I handed her the box and letter. "Its nothing really just something he might need in the future." I shrugged.
"You still haven't tell him?" Sarah raised her eyebrow, as though she is challenging me. "Wait....so you are not going for prom? But prom is the most important thing in a girl's life!!!! You have to choose a dress, then shoes, and makeup. Oh my!! And your hair is perfect for any style.."
"Sarah..."
"I think I have some contacts that can help you with...."
"SARAH!!! I AM NOT GOING FOR PROM!!!!" I almost shouted but luckily I didn't.
"But its prom!!!!! Its every girl's dream!" She started doing her pouty lips like her dog.
"Then thank god I'm not a girl. Ok Sarah I really have to go, just give that to him. Probably best after prom. And I'll make sure to call you when I land in New York. Thank you for everything. I'm gonna miss you and your family." I gave her a long big hug and I swear both of were in tears.
And with that I'm off to New York. A new life. Putting everything behind.
-AFTER PROM-
*Mike*
Waking up the day after prom sure takes a hell lot of effort. Its been a crazy year I'll admit. But everything fell into place and I'm happy. I hope Lily enjoyed prom last night. Though I didn't see her. At least I saw her during graduation but didn't get to take a picture. Hell, she wasn't at the leavers' party.
Wait..... Her house looks empty. And why is that? Ok I need to investigate, but first breakfast.
As i climb downstairs into the kitchen, I saw a note
"Off to the groceries with your dad. There's breakfast on the counter and a surprise for you -Mom"
Nice, surprises. I see pancakes, eggs and bacon on the counter as well as a box and a letter.
Mike
My name was written nicely on the letter. I was 100% sure that is Lily's handwriting. Without a doubt. I hurriedly open the letter and it reads,
"Hey Mike!
I know this may seem weird to you that I wrote a full handwritten letter. Its weird for me too. But im just going to go straight to the point. As you are reading this, i am no longer living across your house anymore, i am no longer your neighbour, i am no longer there. Ive moved somewhere else because mom just got promoted and i got a great scholarship in a top university, something i didnt expect to happen to me.
Sarah and your dad knew about it but i didnt let them tell you, well because you were busy with school and you just started your relationship with Caitlyn and i didnt want to ruin that.
Let me be honest, after you started hanging out with Caitlyn, i felt left out. Yes, you may have invited me to do stuff together and i know she's a great person, but i just cant bear it. To see someone you love doing things with someone they love is just too painful.
Yes, i love you. But it was too late for me to show it. But alas, i cant do anything about it.
During your absence, i did a lot of things alone. I worked part time, (i bet you didnt know about that), i finally learned how to swim, and i even aced in my exams. Though i did most of it all to get your attention, but i failed terribly. But i continued with my life.
But what hurts me the most is you didnt care enough about me after having a relationship. Its not that im asking much of your time, but when i called you to help me with something, you said you were busy. You even scolded me. "Oh my god, can't you get your mom to help you with that?! Dont be such a puss!" Yeah, i remembered every single word. But i forgive for that, you must be having a rough day or just had a row with Caitlyn.
So now, i just wanted to say good luck in life and may it bring you endless rewards. Live life happily. Dont worry about me. Im in a much happier place. Probably.
Love, Lily.
Ps: check the box! "
I swear to god, i was in tears already. I was so busy with everything that's going on i forgot about the person who was there for me the most. Even during my games, my trips to the hospitals.
Why am i such an idiot?! I mentally groaned to myself.
I opened the box and turned out to be a collection of pictures, charms, gifts that she kept all these years. There's even a picture of me and Caitlyn together that i sent to her. She printed it out. There's a quote on it saying "whenever you have a bad day, look at this picture and remember the happy times with her :) ". That killed me inside. Fuck i didn't want to remember Caitlyn, i want to remember her!
"You finally know what an idiot you are, huh?"
I turned my head towards the voice, it turned out to be my dad.
"Honey, don't call him that!"
"She was such a nice girl and to think she didn't even stay for prom. I thought our boy was gonna keep his promise and bring her to prom. But nooooooooooooo his girlfriend was his prom date" dad sighed heavily.
Fuck. I did promised her that. Wait, she didn't stay?
"What do you mean she didn't stay for prom?" I asked both of them.
"Well honey, after she found out you asked Caitlyn to prom, she straight away booked her flight. She left after graduation. She could not bear it anymore. I don't blame her for it though. She deserves a break from everything. I didn't expect you to break your promise either. Now when she is married, she does not know what it feels to go for prom, what it feels to be dolled up, to wear crosages." Mom frowns as she look to the gardens across our house.
"Yeah, but she always says "for mike's happiness" and ends it with the sincerest smile" dad kissed mom's forehead before heading to the garage.
I think this is the worst thing I've done to her, including scolding her. She is not even at fault. Why was i so blind? She deserves happiness as much as i do. She didnt even go to prom.
"MOM!!! Where did she move to?!"
"Ohhh mikey, im so sorry. I'm not allowed to tell. I promised her i wont tell you. At least i keep my promises, unlike you" and with that she scurried off to her room.
Screw mom when she's right.
Fuck, Lily..... Im so sorry. I was always your priority, but you werent. If only i could make it up to you.
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